I was at school and I saw this paper like flyer thing... lol.... It is called Diversity Rules and it is for the LGBTQ community and their supporters. It is the very first issue and it is very interesting and helpful. They have it published online as well so if any of you wish to take a look.... http://www.diversity-rules.com It really is a great publication.

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Dir En Grey scare me but this is so Funny LMAO!!

I had to post this because it makes me feel good LMAO

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J took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Needs a peaceful environment. Wants release from s..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

It isn't too far off on some things.... interesting.....

Daren walked into the room and paused as he saw Mark sitting in the lounge chair reading a book, no doubt one of his fantasy books. Mark was a sensual man with good looks and a clean appearance. He was about 5'11" when at his full hight, but he had a habit of slouching a bit to make himself seem a bit shorter. His golden hair was short and spiked and he was clean shaven. His eyes were deep sapphires, drawing in any who gazed into them and drowning them in the dark blue oceans. He had obviously just gotten out of the shower because he was in a towel and his muscular body still gleamed with wetness in the light. His skin was smooth and lightly tanned and he was hairless until you got to his "trail." He looked up from his book as he heard Daren enter the room. He smiled one of his amazing smiles that could win anyone over. It was a smile that lit up his whole face and made his eyes turn a darker shade of blue, the sign that he was truly happy and relaxed. Daren, who was now a little further into the room smiled back and Mark went back to reading. Daren was a bit shorter than Mark, at his full hight he was 5'7" and he rarely slouched. He had dark raven locks that turned a violet color when the light hit it a certain way. He kept it short and feathered back and he was sporting a five o'clock shadow that made him looked rugged yet sexy. He had green eyes like emeralds, deep and flowing pools of liquid. They too could swallow someone up. He was dressed in a blue colored shirt and cream shorts. He, like Mark, was smooth and built well. He kept gazing over at mark letting his eyes wander up and down him several times before realizing what he was doing and looked away again, but he always ended up looking again. Mark looked up and saw Darn looking at him and gave a secretive smile and shifted slightly so Daren could get a "better look." He saw Darren blush a bit and couldn't help but laugh. Daren then grew a bit more red at having been found out and turned quickly to straightening his bed. Mark closed his book and set it on the table, stood up and stretched and quickly caught his towel before it fell off. Now it was Daren's turn to laugh and Mark joined him. They met each other half way and Daren grabbed Mark by his shoulders and pulled him in for a kiss. They had been dating for two years now and they were at Hawaii for there anniversary. The balcony door was open and the ocean was at the back door, the smell of the crisp salt water filled the room and heightened the mood even more. Mark slid his hand under Daren's shirt and caressed his chest, rubbing his fingers in the light layer of hair. Daren ran his hands down Mark's arms and up his back to his shoulder blades, exploring every muscle carefully. They paused from their kiss and Mark slowly pulled Daren's shirt off and tossed it on the chair. They moved onto the bed where they continued to explore each other's chests and kissing. Daren moved to lean into Mark's neck where he showered him with kisses so soft and sensual, like a butterfly's wings gently brushing the wind. Mark let out a soft sigh and Darn nibbled his ear a bit while his hand moved to Mark's nipple.



If anyone wants me to continue, just post and let me know. Also let me know if you have any comments on my writing style. I am curious as to whether I would make it as an author or not (of course it wouldn't be this stuff..LOL.. it would be Fantasy novels and what not.) Anyways... take care.

The guy I mentioned before... the one that frequents the library... he came in again today... I did everything I could not to stare dreamily at him... Oh but he is a beautiful person. *sighs*

I was watching Dawson's Creek with my mother earlier today and I almost cried (I didn't in front of my mother though) because of poor Jack... I can kind of relate, but then again I can't. He went to where a guy he really likes lives and kissed him in public, but the other guy has a bf... he goes home mad and upset and his father wants to know why, but he's like you don't really want to know... and then he tells his father and his father is like oh and then he starts crying and he says "I can't keep doing this. I didn't ask to be gay." and his father says "and I didn't ask for a gay son, but I am glad I have one." he then goes over and hugs Jack while Jack cries into his arms... I so wanted to cry with them.....

Okay now that I rambled lol... I think I will end here for now.. till later

(p.s. I did spell check and nothing is wrong... YEAH!! LOL!!)

I decided to post my story that I posted on boystoys. But be warned... it is like written gay porn.

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I am in such a fabulous mood today... I feel good about myself for a change, I love it =). I ended up telling another of my close friends my secret and I have no regrets. She told me she figured I was, but she was happy that I confided in her. I went to school on 3 hours of sleep, but I was in such a good mood and feeling so good about who I am I wasn't even tired... although, when I got home I took a 3 hour nap LOL. I am going over to the first friend I told's house and we are going to hang out all day, we are going to have so much fun XD. Another of my close friends is going to be there too and I have been seriously thinking of telling her too, I am sure she will be just as accepting of me as the other two were. WOW!! this is getting a bit confusing so I am going to give them initials. The first one I told is now F the second, A, and the third I am debating yet is M. If you put them together you get FAM as in family, and to me they are my family, the family I can confide in. So I am doing much better than I have in a long time. I also want to thank you Jeff for helping me out during this time of my life, I am so glad we met and I am so glad I can be so open with you, you really helped to make me feel good about myself today, so THANK YOU!! I hope that we can be friends for a very long time. Well, I guess that is all for now, till later.

There is a guy that frequents the library where I work and he is just so drop dead gorgeous. I see him and my pulse quickens and I get weak kneed, oh how I long to kiss him, to caress him. I haven't even talked to him, I don't want to seem like I am flirting because I am not out and I do not think I could talk to him normally because I am basically drooling over him. OH the complications of my life.

I have thought an awful lot recently about telling one or two of my closest friends, but can't find the words of see scenarios where they end up hating me and that is the last thing I want. I am lost in a world of confusion. Guys turn me on, but am I really bi? I have never experimented with a guy so I don't know... Although I have a strong gut feeling I would be in heaven next to another man. I just want to meet a guy that we can be together in secret and he wouldn't mind, and when together we can act as if we are just really good friends, but I do not forsee that so I am trapped to fantasies in my mind and physical longings that threaten to tear me apart. I feel so lost sometimes. Sometimes I think that I don't know what I am doing anymore.